Heartbeats

by Lo on July 1, 2010

Due to my gestational diabetes, which, although under control, technically classifies me as a “high risk” pregnancy, I’ve been having twice weekly NST monitoring–or a Fetal Non-Stress Test. This non-invasive procedure measures fetal movement and heart rate and also my contractions for 20 minutes. The point is to make sure that the baby is moving and when she does, that her heart rate raises and falls appropriately.

Today they had to wake her up to get the test going, so they made me drink cold, cold water, which did the trick. I kind of felt bad, imagining her being jostled from her comfortable snooze. I wondered if it was like dumping a cold cup of water on someone while they are in a warm shower. Or just splashing someone in a pool when they aren’t expecting it. Poor girl.

Once she was awake she moved around quite a bit and I loved just laying there listening to her heartbeat. It was so cute, speeding each time¬†she moved, then slowing down to a tiny, steady thump again. I smiled everytime it happened and then I thought about what it would be like to lay next to her and see her little chest move up and down. I’m getting super, super excited to have her here in real life.

And I’m starting to really wonder what she will look like. She could have brown hair, blond hair. Theoretically she could have black hair or even red hair, if you go back to Ben or my hereditary roots. It’s all so curious.

I’m anxious to know that she is healthy, too. It seems like she is. But I’ll be just a smidge worried until I see her and hold her and hear her breathe and cry.

Basically, I’m ready. I know I still have three weeks to go, but aside from the loose ends that I can’t seem to tie up but that don’t seem to really matter anyway–like finding the perfect diaper bag…I am so, so, so ready to meet our daughter.

{ 4 comments… read them below or add one }

Roc Platino July 2, 2010 at 4:06 pm

what a beautiful piece. thanks

Anastasia Cerankosky July 2, 2010 at 4:42 pm

Ahh! Ya just made my cry.

Teresa July 2, 2010 at 11:05 pm

Beautiful! I will be thinking about you and praying for a safe delivery.

Edan July 3, 2010 at 3:47 pm

What a lovely piece!
(And, girl, we have to find you a chic and functional diaper bag!!!!)

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